Raquel Leviss defiantly returned to social media to update “Vanderpump Rules” fans on where she stands with co-star Tom Sandoval following their months-long affair.
“Besides the indefensible circumstances surrounding our relationship, my feelings for Tom have always been sincere and born out of a loving friendship,” Leviss wrote on Instagram Wednesday night.
“Knowing how many people we hurt, I need to understand my choices and learn to make better ones.”
Leviss said she now needs to shift focus onto her mental health, as well as “work on self-growth and take time to be ok with being alone.”
“I care for Tom and I don’t want to label anything or predict what lies ahead. Right now I need to heal,” her statement concluded.
“I want to apologize for my actions and my choices, foremost to Ariana [Madix] and to my friends and the fans so invested in our relationships,” she wrote.
“There is no excuse. I am not a victim, and I must own my actions, and I deeply regret hurting Ariana.”
The 28-year-old blamed the affair on her “addiction” to love and vowed to do better from here on out.
“I am reflecting on my choices, speaking to a counselor and I am learning things about myself such as my patterns of codependency and addiction to being and feeling loved,” she wrote.
“I have sought emotional validation through intimate connections that are not healthy without regard for my own well-being, sometimes negatively affecting others and often prioritizing the intimate connection over my friendships.”
Leviss claimed she has been “physically assaulted, lost friendships, received death threats and hate emails” since the affair, dubbed “Scandoval,” made headlines last week, referencing a sexually explicit video that she recently accused her co-stars of sharing.
“I have begun counseling to end my unhealthy behavioral cycle, learn to set stronger emotional boundaries and learn to protect my mental health,” she concluded, adding that she doesn’t “expect sympathy, understanding or forgiveness.”
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Her statement came just hours after Tom Sandoval, 39, finally issued a groveling apology to Madix.
“I want to apologize to Ariana. I made mistakes, I was selfish, and made reckless decisions that hurt somebody I love. No one deserves to feel that pain so traumatically and publicly,” he wrote via Instagram early Wednesday.